Guess....

anyone who can guess who is this, i will give him/her a bar of chocolate!!

don't hesitate..faster guess..

u only hv one chance!

OFF TO MALAYSIA!!!!

Excited

i saw Orange moon today!!
it's cool....

Now i feel damn "high" for don't know what reason!
Maybe the coffee that i drank?

I am going back to Malaysia this friday!
I think all my friends are happy..
My friends in Singapore will happy (especially hun dan..) cause I wont disturb them for few days since i wont bring my laptop back
My friends in Malaysia will happy cause I can meet them!
Haha.. now i am hv fun with my friends in Singapore although life in JC is tiring!
I learnt a lots of things here!
I tried a lots of things here too!

However,
These days i really tired!
I planned to chiong all my homework so i can play fully in Malaysia.. But somehow failed!
I failed to turn into a Hataraki Man!
Not up to the standard yet..
Maybe if i reach Elizabeth's standard, i may able to do so.. but that will take me years to catch up with her

恨

在电台上听到这一段话：

“当你花力气去恨人时，你只会更恨你自己，倒不如去珍惜身边其他的感情”

不得不承认这是事实。。。

朋友

“朋友就是看透了你，还是喜欢你的人”

is this true? i really not sure...

爱与不爱

凌晨十二点了

我还站在你家门外

或许。我真的不应该

然而。你的快乐

不是我给你的

悄悄站在门外，静静望着你发呆...

你闪烁的双眼，看着一片海，笑起来...

从来不对你说明白，害怕你会被伤害...

也许我不应该，站在这门外， 所以我们才默默分开...

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛，我们都无话可说，你现在的快乐，不是因为我，我很难过...

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛，那就松开我的手，故事走到最后，期望你更好过，请你忘了，曾经有过...

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛，我们都无话可说，你现在的快乐，不是因为我，我很难过...

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛，那就松开我的手，故事走到最后，期望你更好过，请你忘了，曾经有过...

我知道
不管怎样
我知道你成功了

在我背后
我不知道会发生什么事
但我知道他们都会站在你那一边
这是我早就预料到的结局
只是，我选择豁出去
我希望能改变点什么
但我做错了，我还以为你能谅解

这件事上，
我或许有错
但是为什么你不曾从我角度上想？
我知道没有人能了解我
我也不需你的了解
我只是非常在意你的口气与态度！

恭喜你，你赢了！

Happy birthday,my best friends!

Today is 26th! My 2 best friends birthday!

Hui Wan:

HUI WAN!!!

Instead of wish u first, i want to say I MISS YOU!!!!

I feel bad cant go back to celebrate ur birthday with u..
I also realise that i dont hv much pic that has only u and me..

seriously need to go out more often and take more pic

haha.. i know for 5 years already?

u always so important in my life..

hehe.. 19th liao loh

big girl liao

always stay happy ok?

love u so much~~

muacks.. Happy birthday ya!!!!

Wai Kit:

LENGCAI!!!
haha!
u look so handsome in this picture leh!
too bad, i'm not a lenglui!

I still can remember u and benjamin!
both of u were so noisy when u two sitting behind me during Form 3
and u two always like to bully me!
but i really enjoy being bully..
u two gave a lots of laughters to me!
all the time we spend in prefects board and also s6 left load of good memory to me..
i appreciate all of them!

lengcai, stay happy and stay healthy ya!

在意

因为太在意你的感受
所以变得不像我自己
因为太在意你的看法
所以改变原本的自己
知道这样是不对的
但还是无法控制，不是吗？

Hataraki Man 3

Episode 6- Regret is not a bad thing, but to regret tommorrow, we have to live today to the fullest

Episode 7? - to tell people hard we've worked, and believe that we'll rewarded for it, that's just an ideal, reality doesnt work that way. But once in a while we get reward, that why we can give our best

Episode 11 - "Maybe become a hataraki man is a sad thing, but being afraid to loss or what's ahead , or throwing away what's in front of me , i cant do those things, now i can live life to the fullest, and that's definitely , because it's leading up to tomorrow! "

"working is hard, you run , cry , laugh....but go straight forward , embracing your dreams, because that's living is about"

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

It's end!
Hataraki Man!
I feel like doing one thing..
Stand up and say "BRAVO"!!
HAHA
It is really inspiring me!
But i think , in this world, is really hard to work at a place like Jidai where everyone really can work well with each other..
There are more 内斗 than what we expected
No matter what, i hope i wish i can be Hataraki Man... Dont have to be 100% ..but 25%? That's hard also..HAHA..

Happy birthday, Kai Boon!!

sorry~~ i really damn busy today and i just reached home!

so the first thing that i did is on my computer and wish u!!

haha

Happy BIRTHDAY YA~~~

U r 18 now! Congratulations!

Thanks for helping me in ungu (although is long time ago but i still can remember) and also being such a wonderful child!

actually hv much more to say.. but i forget! i did think about it in bus but now i forget.. u see , ur mother getting old..

Last but no least,

Hope u hv a wonderful birthday!! ENJOY~~~

Happy birthday!

臭丽丽，生日快乐！

祝你

早日结婚

早日生子

寂寞

最近在Facebook 看见来自一个叫“孤风”的人写的：

“夕阳西下，无情的夜晚向我袭来，让我措手不及。我寻遍脑海中的每一个角落，全是你的每一个记忆碎片。可是，想你，却不能告诉你；我知道，我不能告诉你：我想你。我知道有些距离是永远也无法超越与拉近。

我想你，我要如何告诉你？想你，是一种幸福的痛，就像一场无法苏醒的梦。世界上最遥远的距离不是生离死别，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。一杯淡而无味白开水唯我独饮，却能让我醉而不醒；原来深夜是如此的安静，静得可以听到心碎的声音，泪珠滴滴嘀嗒落地声……

望着你，我不知道是该靠近一点，还是就站在远方给你祝福，有时很迷惘，但我却很理智告诉自己，我必须选择后者，这是对你的唯一尊重，也是我唯一能为你做的事。我只能在心里一遍一遍的告诉自己：“爱一个人，不必拥有，只要对方快乐，再多的也是值得。”而我却怎么也无法告诉你：“这样冷清夜晚，陪我度过了春夏秋冬，那种感觉真的很难受。”

初恋红豆冰

初恋不一定要有完美结局的 。。。。

推荐给你们： 初恋红豆冰

《纯文艺恋爱》

Trailer :

Hataraki Man2

Episode 3 - People who can do what they really want are lucky. For most people, once they go out in the world, they lose that. You're made to do things you want to. And you see that reality isn't what you thought. Eventually you don't know what to do anymore.

I wonder whether i can choose what job i want to do in the future. Even though i can get into the career i want, the job that being assigned are they really want i want?
I don't want to think much now. I just hope that at least i can get into the course i want for university.. LET'S WORK HARD for that!

Episode 4 - admiration will become an obstacle at work sometimes, but admiration also plants a lots of seeds in the heart

Really have to agree with this. For me, admiration can be my motivation, but also something that disturb me sometimes. Because, I am not able to control my heart!

Hataraki Man

"Wash your face and start all over again! Be who you are"
"That's right. I pushed the responsibilities of my failure onto others. "

The drama is inspiring me.
Ya, I'm quite down these few days.
No matter how i try to get out, it seems like resistant force there
These 2 days i strongly felt i am tired
I'm tired of life.
I shouldn't push the responsibilites of my failure
Shouldn't still wondering what's went wrong
Time to wash my face and move on!

PW

Not to grumble..
Not to express my sadness..
Just intend to say what's in my mind now..

Congratulations SG01 for doing well for PW.. (except me)
really proud of them!

After cool down and come and think about it,
i think my efforts for PW are not wasted at all..
at least i contribute myself and therefore my PW group members can get good results
at least i hv a son that i can nag
at least i enjoy the process of PW although is really tiring
at least get to get closer with miss tan

i actually intend to look back the video and slides that i did
but i scared i will cry
maybe i will go back n see it like 1 year or 2 year later?

i never thought that i will write this post..
after reading tham hin's post,
i am surprised
he thanked me for his PW's survey and A&E
but i don't think i actually help much..
he helped me even more than that (other subjects)
but because of him
i think i shouldn't blame myself for dragging the whole class's perfomance
at least my group members get As

but still , i want to change name..
don't like my name short form is PW

after all , i still want to thanks Miss Tan and all SG01 members...

泪海

果然，我的预感是准确的

但是却没料到我会奔溃



当我知道自己的成绩时，

好像我被打了好几个巴掌那样

可是却不想流泪

只是想安安静静地离开



但是，我却被许多人围攻

每个人都认为我有事

全世界的人都在包围我

好像我是罪人一样

每个人看我的眼神

一刀一刀刺进我的心

感觉上我不在这个世界

还有人把tissue 塞在我的手

让我更觉得自己多么没用



我，强忍着眼泪

我，真的不想变得软弱

我，真的很想当着什么事情都没发生过那样

因为，我知道，我已经不会那么软弱了。。

要不然，我那SPM成绩那时，失去了唯一的A早就哭得稀里哗啦。。。

但是，他们都不懂， 所有的安慰， 只会让我更脆弱！

可是，我也清楚，我一直在忍着，在压抑，把所有的泪水吞进脑袋。。

眼睛也非常疲倦，因为泪水停留在那里



当时被包围时，我看见了“浑蛋”

其实很想求他帮忙，带我远离那里。。

但是。。



就在这时，张银美大小姐就来抱着我

我就奔溃了

泪水完全的流下

我就好像找到一个让我很熟悉的地方

让我放下了我所有的心防
我哪会有那么笨的朋友？
会跟着我一起哭。。　


说不伤心是假的

其实我很相信我自己能度过这一股伤心

毕竟我真的付出了很多心血

曾经有一段期间我是满脑子都是PW的

不管是走路，或者在搭巴士

都很努力地在想要如何改进我的PW

还有我曾经在朋友家做PW，做到完全不知道自己为什么会在她家的地上睡着

可是环境让我顿时间把所有的伤心累积

因为我没有办法和全部人一起为自己的成绩开心大喊

也没办法让我的班创造全A的历史

我在责怪我自己
同时也没有听到想得到的安慰



很庆幸，

我找到让自己把所有的伤心发泄完的方式 --- 打篮球！

刚巧是下雨

我不知道我脸上的是泪水还是雨水

只是拼命的投球！

篮板我也看得不清楚

还会疯狂的大笑

渐渐的

所有东西就抛在脑后

就好像回到从前和朋友打篮球那样开心

要非常感谢我的儿子。。。



可是现实是残酷的

我必须要回到这个世界

我知道我的电话一直在响

他们都在找我

可是，我真的能拍照吗？

我的笑容是假的

我的开心是假的

我的坚强也是假的



篮球给我的疗伤，只能一阵子

当Jolander和我谈天时，我想她应该发现我的眼眶其实还是有泪水的

只要打开我的泪水，其实它们就想水龙头一样流个不止

只是在人前，我还是努力地微笑



回家时

不知道是不是因为巴士里都是我不认识的人

不知不觉，泪又落下

明明就什么都没想

泪水就是不听话

是不是害怕寂寞？

有人听到我哽咽的声音回头望我

但是很快的就不理会我

我不理它，就让它一直落下。。



sheng sheng整天都不相信我的英文很烂，现在我就是要告诉他 !

我不是说5月1日想回去吗？
但是，现在似乎很难
因为要把重心都放在课业上
可是，真的很想回去疗伤
因为只有purple house才能把我的伤治好

其实不应该开掉这个水龙头，因为每次想起它，心就好像被刀割！

惟有等到时间能痊愈它　

我想很多人很讨厌我吧！因为我是PW..

手放开

4月14日，今天是单身节！
做了一个重大的决定
决定放弃思念你，放弃心中的等待，做会原本的自己！

"他，是我一直忘不了的“初恋”，虽然没有和他拍拖，但却不曾忘记他。体育场的跑道会让我想起那一个他。。曾经那是我跌倒最重的一次，失去了生命中最重视的奖。 当每个人像在看好戏时，只有他，伸出他的手安慰我，可是当时我却没有珍惜他。
那一个礼堂，会让我想起他躺在我身后的温度，最喜欢他的声音是从我背后传到我耳边的感觉。。　那一排常是我们追逐的课室，如今已经没有了，可是它们都烙印在我脑海里，因为那个是没有人打扰，能让我们听到彼此声音的地方。"

初恋或许不会成功，但是回想起来那些日子，还是会有甜甜的滋味！

8th of May

really in bad mood today..
just realise that it falls on the same day with my secondary sch's sports day!

I hate GP!
Y we have GP test (only for my class) on that day?
I want to go back Malaysia!
I want to go back CHS!
I want to go back and support my dear Purple House!!!!!!

this is not the first time!
last year their sports day was my first day of BT, which also has a GP paper on that day...
sorry all my dear
sorry all my juniors
sorry all my sons and daughters!

I really want to go back LAH!!!!


I might go back on labour day holiday~~
to help out their deco team and marching....
don't want to tell my parents first
tell them last min
don't give them a chance to reject me..
notice these 2 photos above.. imagine u have build these 2 things! u know how much work and effort need to put in? that y i really want to go back! i hope i can help them.. i went through all these for 5 years already... i know is really hard... but i believe, they can do it 1!

Diarrhoea

This is the 2nd time of this year that i get diarrhoea...
And also don't know what cause it.....
Since i came here, i always sick ..
Haiz..

I was awake for the whole night..
Until 6am, i only able to fall alseep...
Along the way, got ppl accompany me in Msn..
Tham hin also din sleep........
haha..
get to spot some friends back in malaysia still doing their hw throughout the night.. hardworking^^ ..
So i also keep them accompany..
It makes me feel like that time before SPM, we studied almost everyday until late night and will call or sms each other when feel sleepy.. sometimes we just end up talked non-stop..haha

Thanks to diarrhoea
I never been sleep as comfortable as this time..
I feel so 幸福 can hv this feeling
I just keep on sleeping without any distraction
Usually I will always be alert so i wont late for sch..
During the weekends, i will keep on reminding myself to wake up to do hw..
That y have not been sleeping well since the start of the year..
Not only that, i can watch drama while doing hw (not effective at all! )
HAHA.. sometimes i just love to sick
i always feel time are a lots where i can slack, sleep and watch drama

I cooked today!
I only cooked when i am sick..
Because outside food is too oily..
The food that i cooked....It's salty again!
Ya..i tend to put a lots of salts and then only realise is really salty...
if not, i think the porridge should be nice as i put a lots of ingredients.....

I feel like going to school now..
But is like almost the last lesson already..
Just go to school to do hw?
Later get caught by Mr Lim..

Nightmare begins!

IMAGINE U HAVE TO REACH SCHOOL BY 6.45AM everyday?
IMAGINE U HAVE LESSON AT 6.45am EVERYDAY?

next week onwards, my life is going to be very hectic..
i have lesson on 6.45am on monday and 7.10am for the rest of the days...
and i end lesson around 3 something everyday...
for thursday, end sch at 6pm!
i don't know how to keep myself awake for lectures and tutorials..
my sleep is going to deprive again!
i have to drink coffee again!

Not only that, i have to write an english argumentative essay every week!
it really kills me
and also extra maths qns by mrs kwang
not counting the revision package by mr lim
and bio tutorial which i neglected.......

trust me, choice really make a big difference in ur life..
really have to be careful when u make a choice..

如果当初我的回答是“是”，会对我的人生有多大的改变呢？

Peach - Ai Otsuka

PJK

today played a game called "para para tennis" ..
is it?
haha
i don't know what the game called!
i remembered pe teacher said so...
after all, is still a fun game!
at least i get to try out tennis..
and also played basketball with Jia yang, Bear they all for a while


I miss PE (PJK) in Malayisa!
I miss our super nice indoor basketball court!
Still remember, last time every PE lesson, we will sure play basketball
It is a game that bonded everyone of us..
personally i still prefer ball games more than racket games because i get to play with many ppl..
there were many laughters in just one games ..

怎么会有这么好的男人？
哈哈
不过，他有点自恋

BT

Do this looks familiar?

ya.. it appeared at my maths paper again..

now i making more careless mistakes !

CHAI PEI WEN!

I DONT WANT SEE THIS WORD IN UR PAPER ANYMORE!!!!!

overall, for BT results..

is worse than last year results

i failed those that i think i can pass and pass those i think i will fail..

the most not satisfied results was GSC..

my teacher said that's not my standard ...

i'm underperformed

lost my mind because of not feeling well..

这，就是我

果然！勉强笑是件痛苦的事。。
好友1 听了我的声音 “你不要骗人了，谁说你不伤心？ ”
好友2 回答我的问题时说“你现在是一个很疲倦的人”

对呀！ 跟以前相比，确实少了很多的笑容
少了很多傻劲
没有办法赖在朋友身边耍宝
但是确实很努力在乏味的生活中寻找快乐

成绩差，谁不伤心？
当知道自己不是因为不会做，而是在当下无法专心和冷静的去做。。
就像现在我数学老师说的，要冷静，才不会因为粗心而失去分数
不知这样，头脑似乎已到了极限，就算再努力地想把东西装进去，还是没法。。
但是，还是不能放弃
也要懂得承受那些红红的红笔字。。。

我的个性确实矛盾
我害怕寂寞
我渴望有个伴侣
有个可以保护我，能让我依靠的人。。
但是却害怕受伤
宁愿沉浸在电视剧的世界里
在那个虚拟的故事当中活下去。。
有时会因为电视剧中的故事剧情而哭，但回头想想，好像剧情并没有那么悲伤
是我，总认为没人疼，羡慕演员的幸福，感叹自己为什么不会遇到，才会掉泪吧！

Code blue 2

还没看完CODE BLUE 就想写感言。。。

有想起了为什么当初我开始爱上日本戏

因为每一次看了后你会想很多

你会学到

因为它反映了我们现实生活

很肯定的，这一部戏说明了人性的脆弱

我们无法预料下一秒会遇到什么危险

我们的身体也好像存在着一颗定时炸弹

不知道下一秒会诊断出什么病出来

突如其来的病痛，会毫不留情地袭击人类

“人为什么都会想要知道真相呢？比起招致不幸的真相，善意的谎言岂非更加？”
- 这是他说的话

在整部剧里，可以看见有很多的真相是很残酷的。。但是我们还是必须面对他们

说出真相总是很难 人们总是因为各种各样的理由 隐瞒事实真相 然而越是隐蔽人们就越想打开真相的大门 即使不知道门的另一边会是什么 我们在乎的人之所以会隐瞒真相 那是因为怀抱着伟大的爱 不想伤害我们 可是人们却总想让一切曝光

比结果更重要的是努力的过程 这种谎话在成年之后人们就会明白 人们永远都只会看到结果

对，生活上很多东西都只注重结果， 比如说文凭。。 谁会理会你付出多少努力，每个人只看到的是结果

Happy birthday, Bee lian

the cake that designed by me and crystal.. i hv very little contribution only.. look at the pic below, guess the 5 faces at the right of the cake, which one in the pic matches the one in the cake? guess which one is me?

my "jie mei"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE LIAN!!

i know u r damn touched today by us!

i felt proud i can tricked another person again..

by saying that crystal forget about ur birthday and also din plan to celebrate birthday with u..

instead of talking about one person this time, i want to talk about this clique

u know, i feel i am so lucky to know u all..

u all make me see that how hard u can do for ur friends just to make her happy..

just like Jun Ting's birthday..

and u all always give me the feeling that i am not alone

going out with u all always a fun thing...

u all treat each others as important person. .

u all know each other things very well...

u all wont neglect anybody..

u all always sharing and caring...

i really proud to be part of the clique..haha

so Bee lian,

must stay happy and stay pretty ya~~

在我心里的一个人

曾经放过这个帖子，只是重新再放，因为今天才是那个重要的日子

给4月4日生日的你
谢谢你，一路在我心里占着那一个位子
是你，让我知道也有人肯听我说的话
是你，让我知道与人背对背的感觉
是你，让我知道被人背着幸福的感觉
是你，让我知道被人抱着在一起说话的感觉
是你，让我知道这么平凡的我也有被爱的可能性
是你，让我知道这么丑陋的我也有被注意到的时刻
是你，让我知道被人疼爱的感觉

但是，分开后我却没有勇气和你联络
我连你失去你生命中那个重要的人也不晓得
我不会再一直把你当作记忆力的那个人了
给我几个月的时间，等我回去，我一定会努力寻找你
就算利用我所有的人际关系都要找到你
不会再让你一个人承受那些难过的时刻

Happy birthday, Jing Shi

JING SHI!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I miss all the fun we had!

I miss the time where i can "keng gai" with u..

Thanks for always care about me

Thanks for always remembering me

I know we proud to be members for s6

Next time got chance, i will visit u at MMU again~~

MISS YA~~~~

Majo Saiban

THIS IS A GOOD DRAMA!

the first time ever i cant guess the ending!

i am being tricked for the ending!

ordinary drama their ending normally always show how the evil people lose in the battle

but for this drama really different!

the storyline is really complicated.. but i ENJOYED!

is it possible to hv Majo saiban 2?

discovered another lengcai..
such a caring, sweet and cool bf..haha ...

因为太在意
才会注视
因为太想念
才会伤心
因为太注意
才会分心