what i fear

studying in Singapore doesn't sounds like a happy thing to me..
ppl will envy that i can able to study in such environment
but actually i not happy
i fear
a lots
cause
i am not as clever as ppl think
what i achieve last time because i really work hard
but after one year at here, even i work hard, what i get only very little
of course , i'm very disappointed with myself but i still hv to move on
i cannot turn back
i cannot choose back what i really want to study
everytime i made a decision, i did not think properly
that y i fall into this situation

okay, gona tell u what i fear when school reopen
1) PE (what we called PJK in Malaysia)
- ya.. first day of sch, first period..damn it! i don't like sports .. i don't like to run... i already trying hard to get out of that ..is not like pjk session in malaysia where we can play the sports u like..
they FORCE u to run, pumping, sit up ...

2) Lecture time
y i fear? because i usually duno what the lecturer saying especially BIOLOGY~~

3) GP
ya.. i hate english.. i admit that .. but i still trying to get over it.. sumore this year i get a fierce teacher.. i not really like her.. she scolds me once.. n i forever remember her

4) practical time
i don't like experiment. that what i discover last year.. i will fear n worry everytime we going to have experiment. i hate writing report.. it just reflects that i simply not suitable to be a science students

After all, i just realised what choice to study a-level in singapore.. y i come out with this post？ all because of i had insomnia on last thurs...then i spend the whole night thinking since i cant sleep...i hv a big possibilities not taking science after a-lvl..but i dont think my parents will agree.. i still haven discuss with them about this issue.....i don't want when i go uni that time they still ruled over my decision.. i don't want to be unhappy when i working later... at least, i want to choose sth that i passionate with.. DEFINITELY NO BIO unless sth happen n change my mind..