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寂寞是难以解决的心理问题
疲倦是围绕自己无谓的毛病
一直被后悔纠缠着
何时才能放开自我
难以忍受的生活
从一开始就不该踏入
还以为自己能大方地说从不后悔认识
但是被给"冷肩膀"后
真的很疲倦
为了迎合
所做的改变是否值得
已不知道了

被 爱与不爱捆住了
好累

恋

不愿承认不愿面对

我真的爱你很深很深

一个笑容一句话语

都让我心跳很快很快

每个思索每个欲望

全被你占据很满很满

无法平静不想透露

因为爱你快乐很久很久


情愿醉死在梦里


当一切都变得无力


情愿为你而美丽


当你呼唤我的名字


情愿默默的隐藏


当它只是一个错误


情愿很久的以后


当一切都被时间冲淡

我只会更爱你

有你真好

这时候最能让我想起你，多希望你在这里，oh~~~

你总是愿意　把你的手心　借给我握紧。

该往哪里，我总是依赖着你，你是我的方向感，oh~~~

我可以确定，你会带着我，朝对的方向前进。

I´m thinking of you，　我有你真好，你能让烦恼变得渺小，

我遇见一个最懂我的人，我会提醒自己，把这份爱收好。

I´m thinking of you，　我有你真好，只要牵着你的手就知道，

我不是一个人在这世界停靠，因为我拥有你　在我心里。

I´m thinking of you，　我有你真好，只要牵着你的手就知道，

我早已经没有任何缺少，因为我拥有你在我心里。

random updates

I'm so high when i was doing paper 2 chem.. i was so down when i was doing paper 1 chem..
i struggled a lots yesterday!
although the paper not very tough..
haiz

bio paper 3 was okay.
i think since last year until this year..
this was the only paper i can write so much

prelims is going to end soon
tmr is the last day..
all the while i was thinking about december stuff
not really go into real planning
but thinking about how much time i left to spend in this country
i think after i come back from Taiwan trip, i will go to class chalet ,then back to Malaysia already.
i cant find any reason for me to stay here.
that y i am going to make full use of the remaining time
is quite irony that now i dont feel like end a-levels asap

Yankee-kun to Megane-chan < 不良仔与眼镜妹〉

朋友，可以影响你一辈子

关心你的朋友，永远都会支持着你，不管你是谁，你的性格多坏

Hana Yori Dongo 日本版流星花园

爱，不管多遥远的距离，

都可以把两个人的心牵绊起来

真爱，是一种永远切割不了的东西

看完了这部剧，更确定一个道理

对我来说，现在浪漫也不再需要了

因为只要有一个真心想保护你，守护着你的人在你身边

浪漫自然就回来了

不是吗？

但这个白马王子何时何日才会出现？

Maths is shiok!
I confirm fail!
Mrs Kwang is going to scold me....

I love today
Finally i can concentrate
and not feeling very tired all the time anymore
心有点安稳的感觉
is the environment?
not sure..

i'm excited over my taiwan's trip even though the trip is going to be on december!
haha

i have many things to post on like about 2 drama that i watched, birthday wishes~~
argh.. i dont hv enough time to do so..

Congratulations~~

i really want to congratulate my sister
ya.
she got nanyang girls school scholarship
just signed contracts
my parents were so so excited
i think she can manage to cope better compare to me


i wonder.. coming to singapore to study is it the best choice?
it always a dream for anyone in Malaysia to study at here
they view singapore as a "high class place"
only clever people can come here
i still have no answer for that qns.

What am i doing here??????
I dont know why
I just cant study..
where is my motivation ya?

最开心的一天！

我好好好HIGH!!!
哈哈！
什么疼痛都消失了！

不知道该不该感谢新加坡歌迷的down
让我的HIGH 有机会，还让栋梁听到！！！！！！
我超爱和他的互动
在大庭广众下，第一次我大声地喊：“栋梁最帅！ ”
他假装没听到，还叫我重复！
第二次我同样地喊：“栋梁最帅！”
他说“哈哈！ 我听到了！其实刚才假装没听到！”
好开心哟！
在几百个人面前和他互动！！！！！！
HAHAHAHHAHAHA
开心死了！

有好多从别的国家来的歌迷
通常都是这一群人在HIGH

一个小时以内
我不断地喊
不断地高声和栋梁合唱
还开心
觉得是近几个月来最开心的一天
那一首首动人又熟悉的歌
我也爱那些新的编曲

淋雨值得
迷路值得
HAHA！

剩下的80天

不知为何
为了考试冲刺的力量消失了
累了吧？
以前总不会面对这样的事情
竟然在考试前不想读书

最近看了这一部电视剧
讲述的是一群迷失的青少年
不知自己的目标
对未来非常的渺茫
我觉得我也是其中一个吧
我没有办法提起勇气告诉父母我的梦想
要不然也不会来到不属于我的地方读书了
不过我并不确定那是不是我真正想要的

大概剩八十天了吧！
就是a-level 了吧？
对我来说，这个日期不只是为考试奋斗的期间
也是和这里的朋友相处最后的一段日子
过了这八十天，大家就会分开了
见面的机会也少了吧！
坦白说
当初来到这里真的很讨厌这里所有的人，事与物
但是渐渐的看开了
虽然有时还会感到寂寞
但是有了里面这里每一个朋友的陪伴
我感受到了这里的温暖
也许对你们来说，我很烦
但对我来说，其实你们都好好哦！哈哈！
谢谢你们的存在

oops 突然间太感性了吧？
不管多累
只要有朋友在身边，一切都变成好的，不是吗？

好了，现在要努力看看
希望头脑不再阻塞了！

Prelims

I AM TIRED!
2 days ! 5 hours paper on each day!
WOW
I really want to praise those ppl who can mug before test start
Everytime after the first paper, i sure feel dizzyness
I not sure why
I suspect that is because of anaemia
It started last year and i always feel giddy after maths paper

the first 2 days , i had totally different feelings!
the first day was kind of enjoying
I was enjoying writing GSC although i changed my topic after 30 mins and not able to finish it..
However, i finally found back my enjoyment when writing chinese essay ever since after last year a-level h1 paper.
So, the results were not important anymore. I found back my feeling. That's the most important thing. That means i wont stuck at my current state anymore.
After that, i was hiding somewhere in the school and slept at there
I have no mood to study for the next paper.
I expected that there are more organic chem qns.
Luckily, it was the other way round.
I enjoyed doing the paper. I was smiling, laughing at my ans at the same time. I was so damn high until i did not even need to wear my jacket!

2nd day!
ERM..totally different mood from the first day
i felt so down , depressed by both papers!
Of course, these 2 were my weakest subjects
I felt my brain so empty in the examination hall.
is such a bad day..
i am going to sleep now!

Prelims

I cant make it for prelims
I have no confidence for all the subjects.
I spent almost all my study breaks on Bio
But seems like i still cant make it
This is because i am just able to finish a few topic that are very related to chemistry
Those topic that related to DNA i haven got time to explore... (They are like 60%-70% of the whole paper! )
I'm dead.
Spend so much time on biology and neglect other subjects , i still unable to make it for bio!
But one thing i am glad that i feel that i have improved!
And i dont complained much about Bio except "Bio is dry"
6 days already passed...glad that I am still survive..

Reflection on me

Initially this was what i wanted to post :
"世界很大　却没有办法容下我　很多人都希望我消失吧　跟我相处久了的人都觉得我是不折不扣的大麻烦吧?　放心　佩雯会消失的　很快　再忍忍"

That time, I was upset by something.. I even called Mr. J because i felt that i could not handle my emotions seriously. He told me a lots of things. His words made me realized that I am really worry too much. He reminded me that when i faced problem, it was good to consult friends but overly reliance on friends was bad. I remembered clearly that he said that there is nth that cannot be solve, sometimes i have to rely on my own power to solve it. There are much more things that i want to share but due to time constraint, i cannot elaborate further. What he said, brought a big impact to me. And i shall put all those words in my head. Trust me, he is a sincere friend. Mr. J, thank you! That why i always say your place in my heart is very important. Thanks for being such wonderful friend. But to be honest, i lied to you. I was crying when i was talking to you. I actually recovered already.

Yup. i am too rely on others. and i think that i always bring trouble to other ppl. I promise from now on i will try my best to reduce my reliance on others. I want to believe with myself. JIA YOU! GAMBATEH! Not forget to mention, thanks to all my friends who always tolerate with me especially MrFxxx.


After i finished watching this, i realized that is good to be yourselves. In other ppl's eyes , i may be a childish, 没大脑。。。。。but i'm just me! No matter what, i will still try my best to change my bad habit

funny incidents

‎2 funny things happen today that make me want to laugh :
the 1st things is I was being criticised as a mean girl who let a guy sit on the floor while I was enjoying myself on the seat. I dont know how to explain why this. but I learnt sth, what we see may not be true and we have to find out the truth behind be4 make any ...conclusion. I know this thing well but I always dont do it

the 2nd incident is even more interesting . when I walked to mrt, a guy approached me.he asked me am I interested to be a model because I have the height and body shape. he tried all his best to persuade me. I gave him a wide smile and told him that I am still studying. of course, as expected, he told me his other model some r still studying too. I walked away after gave him another smile. I not sure is... it a complishment, but I still think i'm not attractive at all.

不是我不明白

不是我不明白 我也知道真心难求
也知道不是别人的错　是我自己太过依赖　太过黏人　太过天真　
看似放开　但其实只是表面上　只是在隐藏自己的寂寞　但寂寞谁会懂

双头魔拳Orthros no inu

看完了这部剧

我有很多想法

或许看过这部剧的人会不认同我的说法

但是听听我的愚见也不错

现在觉得有没有超能力，从聪不聪明并不重要

因为我就是我

没有必要更别人比较

那些天生聪明的人应该会曾经希望自己就像不同人一样吧！

不用承受比别人多的压力

就像里面说的“我会用自己的双手，改变这个世界”

我要努力勇敢地往自己的目标往前

要找到在能了解自己的人很难吧？

很多人都会感觉寂寞

因为无法遇到一个真正能理解自己的人

看完这部剧，我意识到这个机率非常的低

因为很难会找到一个处境和自己很相似的人所以不会再过于期待吧！

找到很可爱关于这部剧的插画！

最近发现自己不会沟通，不会相处，不会做事，不会克制,很烦人，很懦弱。很厌倦这样的我。不知何时自己会变成如此，是不是害怕失去的心态过度了？

人的一生有着很多影响你至深的人与物。影响你的人不一定了解你。他或许和你的心产生化学作用，但是单方面的，是irreversible的。影响你的事情可能改变你一生。让你无法正常地生活。

是怎样的吸引力夺取了我的目光?
没有浪漫的相遇
没有一见钟情的火花
可是那一种舒适的感觉
却让整颗心轻松起来
...身上发出的味道
不是每个人都注意到
但那是让我的定心剂
拖着步伐的身影
总是那么的疲惫那么让人心疼
但那是我想跟上的脚步
也许总是太想念
才连梦境中也见到同样的样貌
你的出现你的存在
将真要溺水的我带到岸边

有沒有一雙手，握住了便不輕易放手。

有沒有一個肩膀，可以倚靠一輩子都有安全感。

有沒有一場擁抱，緊緊的讓兩個人再也不分開。

有沒有一種約定，是相約每一個來生都要和你相遇。

有沒有一段感情，深深刻在心里一輩子不會忘記。

有沒有一個人，是你用盡了一生力氣還舍不得將他遺忘。