Sick

This week really pathetic
Tooth decay, gum infection
Sorethroat, Headache..
haiz..
Cant even enjoy my mum's cooking
T_T

Slow

I am slow like pig
I am lazy like pig
I am dirty like pig
Pls call me pig...

3 of my primay schoolmates are in nus now
at first, i felt demoralised..
while the others are in uni, i am still struggling in a-level
but now..
i should say
wow~
more friends coming here leh~~
I'm NOT ALONE~~ ^^

Not only that,
i dont want to repeat my mistake again
enter a-level because everyone also in a-level
i want choose my own pathway
there are different definition for success
is depend on me to determine my own success

dream

第几次了
又梦见了你
使我不愿意从梦境中醒来
在梦中的温柔是真的吗？
在梦中的笑容是给我的吗？

思念每日剧增
占据在心里的位子是如此的大
远远超越了所有人

我每天害怕的
是你不愿意理我的可能性

如果梦是反映人在白天的想法的话
那我了解我一直都在想什么了
可是人不是不能一直活在梦境里吗？

Nodame Cantabile The Movie II

看完了这部电影，我有很大的满足感！ 从来没有这样过。。




我还是很羡慕NODAME能如此幸运，碰到一个永远都会守护在她身边的王子


nodame的性格上不知道可以说和我像似吗？


她总是笨笨傻傻的，很胆怯，很依赖，很不干净，很不整齐，爱嫉妒，爱幻想，爱烦人，爱粘人，害怕寂寞，对于爱情却充满期望，把自己的目标设在喜欢人的上面，总是为了喜欢的人傻傻地往前进
也许是这样，我才那么地喜欢她。。
可是我想我并没有像她一样讨人喜欢吧！
在爱情这一块她非常勇敢
也刚巧拥有一个不会嫌弃她缺点的王子
但是，这一个王子，在现实生活中，我应该找不到一个能容受我的人吧！
这部戏，完全地表现出我向往的爱情
但是永远都不可能发生在我身上



chiaki 千秋王子。。
口是心非的家伙
明明就在意的要命
却总是表露出他的关心
在电影尾声时，
野田妹（nodame）和千秋王子的合奏让我流泪
我想全场只有我这个傻瓜会那么做
不只是因为那一份爱感动了我，也因为这首合奏意味着一切就要结束了,他们的故事结束了。。
所以才会禁不住流泪的

看见野田妹那么有决心往自己的目标前进

我顿时也下了很大的决心

我决定上大学的课程，要走的路，我要自己决定

不管会遭到多少的反对，这一次我不要再后悔了。

至少在读自己喜欢的科目时，不管多艰难，我都会撑下去

不过现在当然是先考好现在的考试，这样才能脱离苦海，往自己的目标迈进

佩雯，加油！全力以赴吧！

在一天有两把刀刺向你
你的心就会死了

这是早就预料到的结局，不是吗？

我觉得19岁的我
还是像小女孩一样
看着电视剧还是会流泪
还是会哭得稀里哗啦的
我总会把里面的剧情与我的现实生活连接
这似乎显示了我还是期待那个叫爱情的东西
但我很清楚
不会发生在我身上的
我没那么幸运
我没那么诱人

你知道心被割了好几刀的感觉吗？
那一种麻木的痛
那一种麻木的等待
那一种麻木的期许

有一种痛是当他知道你的感觉时
他却无动于衷
所以很清楚两人之间肯定产生不了化学作用
胆怯的我只会制造一个又一个的假象来模糊焦点。。

你知道吗
被爱是幸福的

Motivation

Today eyes pain for no reason
I guess just lack of sleep

Haiz
I lost my motivation
But i still have to move on
I dont want to disappoint people who always been helping me..
Therefore , no matter what, i still will CHIONG till the end!
GAMBATEH~~

Happy birthday , Cindy!

My childhood friend..
haha
i think old buddy is not enough to describe you..
you are always a wonderful friend
who bring me around for concert..
and also genting..
and also MOVIE!
haha
Happy sweet 19th ya!
Stay happy..Stay healthy..Stay pretty~~~
Miss you!

a video for someone

erm..the main guy inside the video should know the video made purposely for who de..
so , happy birthday to you loh~~
got surprise?
haha..
sorry for steal some of the pic from your facebook..
i try not to put so much of your pic in already..
but for the effect of the video, no choice loh~~
i forget what colour you like so i use purple as the background
that's my favorite colour..haha
buck up for your stpm!
Let's move towards our A's together!
Although we are not in the same country,
and is hardly to keep each other awake by sms/calling just like last time,
but the mental support is always here.
JIA YOU! GAMBATEH~~
oh ya, dont forget teach me play bowling next time

《 没有朋友不算悲哀,悲哀的是失去自己》

《 没有朋友不算悲哀,悲哀的是失去自己》

这一阵子，我接触到很多关于友情的问题，使我突然觉得,友情在一些人心目中所占的分量，似乎比我平常所想到的要多许多倍。

我发现，这些为友情困恼不已的人，在心里上有两个因素。一个因素是寂寞，另一个因素是太缺少自信。寂寞使一个人把全部生活的重心都放在友情上，缺少自信使一个人对友情患得患失到无以复加的程度，以致一旦失去了友情，他们就找不到自己。

没有一个人不知道重要，但是，在我遇到这几位为友情困恼的朋友之后，我觉得，如果一个人太倚赖友情，那他从友情所得来的并不是快乐，而是更多的苦恼。

我们经常在谈话中强调“一个人把快乐寄托在别人身上，总难免会失望。”这“别人”包括所有的人——朋友、父母、子女、夫妻，一切...

交朋友，应该。爱朋友，可以。
为朋友付出一切，值得！
但是，你不能没有自己。

不但要有自己，而且要信赖自己！

因此，我想要修正大家所经常相信的一个观念，我要劝大家不要总是主动地去企求友情，而是要让友情自动地来临。

引用一部法国电影里的话，一个人如果朋友多了，就没有朋友了！

你可以与朋友处在一种互相吸引的地位，最好是让自己先具备足够吸引朋友的条件。换句话说，先要充实自己，让自己有光芒。这样，在交友方面，你才进可以攻，退可以守，你才不会为友情忧虑紧张，不可终日。

换句话说，要用吸引力去交朋友，而不要施舍恩惠或阿谀的方法去求朋友。

不要希望每一个人都是你的朋友，友情应该听其自然。

爱朋友，喜欢朋友，用诚意去对待朋友，但不要倚赖朋友，更不要苛求朋友。能做到这几点你才可以享受到交友的快乐。

维持友情的另一要诀是“保持距离”。

无论两个人怎样要好，彼此之间那点应有的尊敬总是不可少的。

许多人，和朋友一熟，就不分彼此了。当初认识时的那点礼貌与分寸也不注意了。朋友一到了互相没有敬意，不注意礼貌与分寸的时候，就快要发生误会与磨擦了。

（文/欲望之翼）

雪天使

今天在图书馆看到一本书
那是《雪天使》漫画版本
这是一部很久很久以前的剧
不知道为何有一股冲动很想很想读
大概是想回到从前吧
虽然我很清楚那是不可能的事
很多时候我们都想要回到从前
所以才有那么多人喜欢回忆这个东西
因为那是我们都回不去的日子

我很想回到最初的感动
想回到最初单纯的时候
想回到天天想快点长大的日子
想回到每天与朋友追逐的生活
可是一切都好遥远
真的不能回去了吗？

Life

Yesterday made a big mistake
I assume that Nicholas teo still support Holland
Until I watched the match
I realized that they played in a very violent way
I was wondering why nic will support this team
From what I know about him, he surely wont support a team like this
Then I go his fb and check..HAHA..HE WAS actually support SPAIN!
BLOODY FUNNY~~~
I did my own conclusion before that
Thinking the he still will support Holland as he supported them previous week before..

Wow..today got great improvement for my ability to focus
I was able to finish half of the bio tutorial qns…
Erm.. i still think that i cant make decision..
I still tend to follow..
But today i follow the right thing..
I went back home earlier so i can finish my sgc..
i really forget about it..
I still have some part haven complete yet..

Oh ya..SENGKANG has a food fair!!
There are a lots of foods here.
i think i going to come here everyday for my dinner~~

爱，不落

就算和你交往一天，也是值得的
因为你，值得我为你这么做

或许别人都不懂
但是我就是不要看你难过
我想尽我的能力带给你快乐
一直以来都是我在带给你麻烦
只想这一次保护你

你是爱情的绝缘体
我没有办法感化你
我没有能力
我不是你心中那个能影响你的那个人
在我心中
你就像是阳光那么灿烂
我就是向着你的向日葵

我恨那个一直打扰你思绪的东西
怪我没有能力将它去除

在爱不落力
我对你的感情是如此的渺小
但是我不后悔
因为你值得

某些人注定是你的敌人
他/她总是会做一些和你相反的东西
刻不刻意我并不知道
但是
我觉得很不爽
只差没去chia死他/她

Thanks

I realised it has been 5 months that i did not post about my test results here.
Usually when i passed those test , i will thanks people who help me a lots here..
ERM.. is obvious that i did very badly recently

Today i received my chem test results.
To be honest, i really worried about the results
Although this test is relatively easy compare to other CA, but i know i made careless mistakes again after the test..
Feel so angry with myself
i think i can do better than this!
After all, i still think that is worth to neglect maths and focus on chem
Nevertheless, i still want to thanks my fake cousin , "hun dan".. (i guess you should know who you are)
Thanks for spending ur previous time guiding me..
Not forgetting to thanks our queen...

Now i have to work very hard for maths..
Maths is lagging behind........
Bio too..
GP too..

gokusen 2, kizuna

I have no time to blog about gokusen 2..

But i strongly recommend this song!

kame's voice is so beautiful..

I like gokusen very much because the class bonding shown in the drama is always what i wanted

I dont think it will occur in real life..

But i always put my best to bond the whole class..

That is the reason why i still organising class gathering for my primary school classmates every year

and also attend class party for my ex-secondary sch classmates without fail

But now, i find it hard to do it for my current class..

Part of the reason is i cant even handle my sch work..

No matter what, i hope i can organise a class trip at the end of the year !

Gambateh~~

Erm.. Not sure what should be the title for this post
But i just want to share something here

I never struggle so much for my academic before
Last time during UPSR, PMR and SPM , I put in a lots of efforts and my consistant work to really ensure that i can get good results.
But now what i suffer is 5 times i suffered last time
I never know that really master a subject is that hard
I never know the feeling of the weak students until i feel it myself
I never know that catching up with others is really so hard
I never know that following what the teacher say is that hard
I never know that i need so much help from my friends
It really a totally brand new experience to me.

When people know that I am studying in Singapore,
they always think that i have a bright future
to be honest
i dont think so
what so great about studying at here when my results are very bad
and take more time to finish a-level compare to the others..

oh ya... i forget to wish all my friends in Malaysia who complete their a-levels..
Congratulations! and Happy holiday!
Come find me since you all so free > _ <

relay

今天体育节后
我用了5个小时才能回到现在的我
这其中的原因是我小学的回忆全部涌上头脑
是什么让我变成这样呢？
当然是赛跑

当我拿着棒跑的时候，所有有关于100m, 4 x 100m 的回忆浮现
好像回到了当初的我
不管是好的不好的
都一一出现
体育馆的跑道，草场的跑道，那双钉鞋，短袖衣，短头发，奖牌，地狱式的训练

虽然棒子拿到手不管三七二十一的冲的习惯还有在，
那一种能专注地跑到自己的目标还在
但是我回不了自己以前的速度
我知道自己的问题
我放不开那一个捆住我的问题
我没有办法放开双脚去跑
如果他们真正会看得话
他们就会发现我根本没有打开脚去跑
要不然我的组是不会输得
现在慢了以前两倍
我很清楚
那是我心里的障碍
一直过不去的栏杆

我没有信心
我能完全放开
我的心还在封闭
但其实我有感觉到自己对于接力赛的热诚