GSC

today essay qns were EASY!
If i really want to, i can do all of them except the last one..haha
but i still choose the one i good with
and everyone in the class expect i choose that qns..haha
because i was the one present to them about that topic upon teacher request..
the same topic also my first achievement got an A for GSC last year..
i love ORGAN DONATION! haha
my teacher really know me well.. when i asked her to guess what topic i choose, her first ans was the correct one..
not forgetting to say , i win my bet with Li Li..
suddenly no more worries.............

毕业

人生中第三次的毕业典礼
只能说在毕业典礼上所得到的感动是最浓厚的。。
那是最后一次能和朋友集聚在同一个屋檐下

这两年
是我人生中最难熬的两年
不过却经历了人生中许许多多的甜酸苦辣

这里所遇到的朋友，老师都和以往的不同
一些老师的过于关心，让我有时倍感压力
一些朋友给与我的回应，会让我伤心
但是，这就是这里的特点

有太多想感谢的人
但是在这里似乎很难表达。。
特别想感激的其实是有四位。。 浑蛋，罗老师，张银美和Miss Tan..
其他包括201每个成员，今天和我出去玩的人，华文班的朋友，老师们。。
我想如果你是正在看着这篇感受的人，
你也是其中一位
那也是关心我的一种表现

现在的我，
是身边每一个人造就的我
我是一个不会控制情绪的人。。
谢谢你们包容我，鼓励我。。
你们让我看到我的缺陷。。
扩大我的视野。。

今天唯一的遗憾就是无法和所有认识的人拍照
只好等到prom night了

毕业了，
大家就会分开了
不管未来如何
我们有缘一定会相聚。。

“别过脸前 才知道泪会流
要走向前 才明白 舍不得 所以回头
放了手 看懂了 离愁才是 抓紧的手
转过身后 才知道心会痛
要狠下心 才明白 走一步 有多遥远
放了心 看懂了 不放的是 一些曾经
*给我答应 我们会再见
让我们天涯海角 始终不变
承诺藏在心里面 什么距离都不算远
给我信心 我们会再见
陷在 思念边缘 也会想念
可以回头再见 就算一切改变
我们会再见
习惯离别 习惯说着再见 然后又相隔了多少年
有没有再见 是不是真的有关缘”

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Studying

Today was super funny..
I had fun studying with Yun qin and Sean..
All the jokes come along
and also sean's "lao hua"
too bad.. our usual gang lack of 1 person..that is tham hin.. so feel a bit weird...
yq and sean claimed that the last time we played poker was very long time ago..
but i felt that is just last week
haha..
Thanks both of them accompany me to go for dinner although they were not hungry at all
when i was happy that i finally know what is SS, i realized i still have SS2 T_T

Reflection

A short reflections for my performance
1. Chemistry
Lesson learnt: Dont be overly excited when doing the paper. While i was writing the answer for the part, i already started to think about the answer for the next question. This caused me made a lots of careless mistake especially for Paper3. I was very eager to finish the paper that time. I am so unhappy with my performances.

2. Maths
As usual, careless mistake. I kind of lazy reflect myself again at here since i already wrote one for Mrs Kwang.

3. Biology
Worse case scenario for biology. Can predict the results i will get tmr. i just have to put extra hard and extra time on this subjects.

4. GSC
VERY DISAPPOINTING especially for Paper 2. I lost my focus for paper 2. i am not performing well for the passage about Econs. But i quite satisfied with my essay although i did not managed to complete it.

5. GP
NO COMMENT

Congratulations~~

i really want to congratulate my sister
ya.
she got nanyang girls school scholarship
just signed contracts
my parents were so so excited
i think she can manage to cope better compare to me


i wonder.. coming to singapore to study is it the best choice?
it always a dream for anyone in Malaysia to study at here
they view singapore as a "high class place"
only clever people can come here
i still have no answer for that qns.

剩下的80天

不知为何
为了考试冲刺的力量消失了
累了吧？
以前总不会面对这样的事情
竟然在考试前不想读书

最近看了这一部电视剧
讲述的是一群迷失的青少年
不知自己的目标
对未来非常的渺茫
我觉得我也是其中一个吧
我没有办法提起勇气告诉父母我的梦想
要不然也不会来到不属于我的地方读书了
不过我并不确定那是不是我真正想要的

大概剩八十天了吧！
就是a-level 了吧？
对我来说，这个日期不只是为考试奋斗的期间
也是和这里的朋友相处最后的一段日子
过了这八十天，大家就会分开了
见面的机会也少了吧！
坦白说
当初来到这里真的很讨厌这里所有的人，事与物
但是渐渐的看开了
虽然有时还会感到寂寞
但是有了里面这里每一个朋友的陪伴
我感受到了这里的温暖
也许对你们来说，我很烦
但对我来说，其实你们都好好哦！哈哈！
谢谢你们的存在

oops 突然间太感性了吧？
不管多累
只要有朋友在身边，一切都变成好的，不是吗？

好了，现在要努力看看
希望头脑不再阻塞了！

Prelims

I AM TIRED!
2 days ! 5 hours paper on each day!
WOW
I really want to praise those ppl who can mug before test start
Everytime after the first paper, i sure feel dizzyness
I not sure why
I suspect that is because of anaemia
It started last year and i always feel giddy after maths paper

the first 2 days , i had totally different feelings!
the first day was kind of enjoying
I was enjoying writing GSC although i changed my topic after 30 mins and not able to finish it..
However, i finally found back my enjoyment when writing chinese essay ever since after last year a-level h1 paper.
So, the results were not important anymore. I found back my feeling. That's the most important thing. That means i wont stuck at my current state anymore.
After that, i was hiding somewhere in the school and slept at there
I have no mood to study for the next paper.
I expected that there are more organic chem qns.
Luckily, it was the other way round.
I enjoyed doing the paper. I was smiling, laughing at my ans at the same time. I was so damn high until i did not even need to wear my jacket!

2nd day!
ERM..totally different mood from the first day
i felt so down , depressed by both papers!
Of course, these 2 were my weakest subjects
I felt my brain so empty in the examination hall.
is such a bad day..
i am going to sleep now!

funny incidents

‎2 funny things happen today that make me want to laugh :
the 1st things is I was being criticised as a mean girl who let a guy sit on the floor while I was enjoying myself on the seat. I dont know how to explain why this. but I learnt sth, what we see may not be true and we have to find out the truth behind be4 make any ...conclusion. I know this thing well but I always dont do it

the 2nd incident is even more interesting . when I walked to mrt, a guy approached me.he asked me am I interested to be a model because I have the height and body shape. he tried all his best to persuade me. I gave him a wide smile and told him that I am still studying. of course, as expected, he told me his other model some r still studying too. I walked away after gave him another smile. I not sure is... it a complishment, but I still think i'm not attractive at all.

Thank you

First of all, thank you for the wishes either from Malaysia, Singapore, Australia and others...
My birthday is a good day as it provides me chances to reconnect with some of my old friends..
I supposed to sleep now after a long day of rehearsal..
But i am still busy replying ppl in facebook and phone..
I'm doing so because i might not get the chance to online tmr onwards..
So i have to start thanks them. .. i may hv to borrow Sherman's iphone again to reply!

thank you, my classmates for celebrating my birthday...

And thank you 谭轩 for the birthday present!! IS DAMN CUTE~~~~~ i really like the present..but too bad.. the light couldnt come out.. but even hv the light, the wire is not long enough..so is ok^^

I like the wrappers... but haiz..

The present is actually is a lamp with smiles
I like the smile.. i will put it on my table to constantly remind myself to SMILE^^

i promise i will try my best get rid of the emo~~

so my friends that know me well, dont need to worry about me anymore ok?

Outing

IS Wesak DAY~~~

so we went to

SENTOSA!!!

i am tired ... so i wont hv so much words in this post...

zhi wei and jolander

these two quite funny ppl..

i think if that day without zhi wei, we couldnt laugh so much..

he had so much reactions...

for this photo..pls refer to tham hin's blog for the caption..

HAHA.. this pic seems like zhi wei wants to kick the ball to jolander's backside..

sitting on the rocks quite fun!

finally.. our group photo!

haha.. girl girl waiting to eat in JPot..

erm.. talking about JPot.. i accidentally dropped one part of the CRAB!!!!!

HAHA

i was explaining how to divide the crab

and i didn't realise there actually a big gap in between the two tables..

so it dropped! haiz...

overall the outing is quite fun..

and this is the first time i went home so late at here..

luckily me and jolander board on the last train..

if not, we had to sit taxi..

BLAME MYSELF

I blame myself now..
For still going on with today's outing plan although i had a lots of fun..
My mum sprained her leg when she bought a new table for me ..But actually i really dont need the table


First of all,
i should hv stay with parents and bring them around the singapore but not leave them with my cousins..
secondly, i should make my point clear right at the beginning..
i really dont want an extra table in my room although my room is messy..
i really spend very little time at home.. furthermore, i only have half more year to go

YA, we really cannot predict the future..
I dont know how much pain she has to suffered when she has to go back to malaysia
is quite troublesome if she takes bus because she has to climb up and down when reach the checkpoint
but she has to go back to see the chinese doctor
argh..
and i felt so guitly
she actually waited until 12.20am for me to reach home

haiz...
I might go back after pre-u sem since i dont hv lesson on monday..

Studies

"Peiwen has continued putting in effort in the subject, but must learn to think critically when she analyses questions."

This is Mr robin's comment..
PUT IN EFFORT?
erm.. i dont think so..
except for SPA, for this month i dont really touch on bio..
i swear i will put my focus on bio during the holiday
he pointed out my weakness in analysing qns
i agree with him..
i cant even understand what the qns asking about especially for bio all the time

Today quite disappointed with myself after i went to lms checked my kinetics results..
And no mood to study for tmr organic chem test
Somehow can predict my results for tmr test
Since i even can failed kinetics test...
Furthermore, i just started revision today.
Dont think can cramp all the thing in few hours especially is organic chem.

This weekend not productive at all
yesterday i lost my way in Bishan so i wasted whole day
today bad mood + tired..
i just slept when i back from tuition..

i might die tmr.. i din do mrs kwang's hw !

Pre-u Sem

My memory is very bad nowadays
So i am going to put down work schedule for pre-u sem here ..
Then next time if i forget , i can use handphone come here check..

26/5 - going to nus (to check on lt)
27/5 - going to NUS PGP
28/5 - Outing
29/5 - parallel presentation rehearsal
30/5 - UCC opening ceremony
31/5(my birthday) - 8am reach YJC... Check in PGP ... FREE TIME 5pm.. I'm going to hunt for ice cream ( I promise myself to let me eat ice cream on that day!! )
1/6 - opening ceremony, parallel presentation, prepare for singapore ID
2/6 , 3/6 - p p + panel discussion.. A LOTS OF FREE TIME... prepare for singapore ID
4/6 - closing ceremony..pack up, back to YJC....

I'm in charge of LT25... This LT is nicer than LT 26... the sound system is also better...

Update

Great! I did badly for GP paper 1 today!
Mrs V is going to force me to go back for remedial class!
NO WAY!
I dont want!
I rather go back to malaysia..

I cant wait for my birthday!
I promise myself that i can only eat ice-cream on that day!
HAHA.. Cant wait!

I want to go out on my birthday!
I always want to do so
Last time i seldom get to go out with friends on my birthday..
To be exact, last time in malaysia, whenever i want to go out , i need to get permission from parents (unless after sch i go out with my friend, after that back to school again and ask them fetch me from school)
Always stay at home for my birthday because always fall on holidays..damn sad..
But this year also cant go out..
Stuck with pre-u sem..
HAIZ

I looking forward for the trip with purple house members!
But i scare i will be overly tired if the trip is the day after pre-u sem!

Ungu boleh!

this is my hand! i went back on 1st of may to help them with deco.. i dont help much..but i miss the feeling that my hand fill with pelaka...

if i'm not wrong, his name is nan long.. i choose this picture not because of him..i want to use to opportunity to thanks the SCOUTS! they always do their best when they build gadget

the coral damn nice!

SEE OUR PURPLE SCORE!!! HAHA ..UNBEATABLE!

Coralss...looks so real right?

octopus!!!!

our wonderful khemah!

Is time to praise all my beloved ungu "grandchildren" for their awesome work!

although many purple house people are not satisfied with the results,

but we prove them even without deco tent as a bonus,

WE ARE STILL THE CHAMPION !!

Wakaka!

ya..by the way, i am upgraded! from a mother to a grandma..haha..old ya =)

Excited

i saw Orange moon today!!
it's cool....

Now i feel damn "high" for don't know what reason!
Maybe the coffee that i drank?

I am going back to Malaysia this friday!
I think all my friends are happy..
My friends in Singapore will happy (especially hun dan..) cause I wont disturb them for few days since i wont bring my laptop back
My friends in Malaysia will happy cause I can meet them!
Haha.. now i am hv fun with my friends in Singapore although life in JC is tiring!
I learnt a lots of things here!
I tried a lots of things here too!

However,
These days i really tired!
I planned to chiong all my homework so i can play fully in Malaysia.. But somehow failed!
I failed to turn into a Hataraki Man!
Not up to the standard yet..
Maybe if i reach Elizabeth's standard, i may able to do so.. but that will take me years to catch up with her

8th of May

really in bad mood today..
just realise that it falls on the same day with my secondary sch's sports day!

I hate GP!
Y we have GP test (only for my class) on that day?
I want to go back Malaysia!
I want to go back CHS!
I want to go back and support my dear Purple House!!!!!!

this is not the first time!
last year their sports day was my first day of BT, which also has a GP paper on that day...
sorry all my dear
sorry all my juniors
sorry all my sons and daughters!

I really want to go back LAH!!!!


I might go back on labour day holiday~~
to help out their deco team and marching....
don't want to tell my parents first
tell them last min
don't give them a chance to reject me..
notice these 2 photos above.. imagine u have build these 2 things! u know how much work and effort need to put in? that y i really want to go back! i hope i can help them.. i went through all these for 5 years already... i know is really hard... but i believe, they can do it 1!

Nightmare begins!

IMAGINE U HAVE TO REACH SCHOOL BY 6.45AM everyday?
IMAGINE U HAVE LESSON AT 6.45am EVERYDAY?

next week onwards, my life is going to be very hectic..
i have lesson on 6.45am on monday and 7.10am for the rest of the days...
and i end lesson around 3 something everyday...
for thursday, end sch at 6pm!
i don't know how to keep myself awake for lectures and tutorials..
my sleep is going to deprive again!
i have to drink coffee again!

Not only that, i have to write an english argumentative essay every week!
it really kills me
and also extra maths qns by mrs kwang
not counting the revision package by mr lim
and bio tutorial which i neglected.......

trust me, choice really make a big difference in ur life..
really have to be careful when u make a choice..

BT

Do this looks familiar?

ya.. it appeared at my maths paper again..

now i making more careless mistakes !

CHAI PEI WEN!

I DONT WANT SEE THIS WORD IN UR PAPER ANYMORE!!!!!

overall, for BT results..

is worse than last year results

i failed those that i think i can pass and pass those i think i will fail..

the most not satisfied results was GSC..

my teacher said that's not my standard ...

i'm underperformed

lost my mind because of not feeling well..

这，就是我

果然！勉强笑是件痛苦的事。。
好友1 听了我的声音 “你不要骗人了，谁说你不伤心？ ”
好友2 回答我的问题时说“你现在是一个很疲倦的人”

对呀！ 跟以前相比，确实少了很多的笑容
少了很多傻劲
没有办法赖在朋友身边耍宝
但是确实很努力在乏味的生活中寻找快乐

成绩差，谁不伤心？
当知道自己不是因为不会做，而是在当下无法专心和冷静的去做。。
就像现在我数学老师说的，要冷静，才不会因为粗心而失去分数
不知这样，头脑似乎已到了极限，就算再努力地想把东西装进去，还是没法。。
但是，还是不能放弃
也要懂得承受那些红红的红笔字。。。

我的个性确实矛盾
我害怕寂寞
我渴望有个伴侣
有个可以保护我，能让我依靠的人。。
但是却害怕受伤
宁愿沉浸在电视剧的世界里
在那个虚拟的故事当中活下去。。
有时会因为电视剧中的故事剧情而哭，但回头想想，好像剧情并没有那么悲伤
是我，总认为没人疼，羡慕演员的幸福，感叹自己为什么不会遇到，才会掉泪吧！